IT"S TIME TO PARTY MY FRIENDS, I am back!!! And I have so much great content planned for you all, which I have been working on since winter.  Instead of jumping back into my blog with no context I decided to make a little intro with goodies for you guys + all my plan reveals for spring!

// Plan Reveals

1. Since I am still pretty busy in Spring, I've decided to do bimonthly posts! For the month of March I have 2 posts in addition to this one planned. I'm going to continue this for April.

2. MAY IS GONNA BE DIFFERENT. May is gonna be me studying like crazy in the days leading up to my SAT, so I will publish one post with a q & a video + a giveaway celebrating my blogoversary and then I will disappear and be back in June 

3. I"M GONNA NEED QUESTIONS, lots and lots of fun questions for my q & a video because I am gonna film it as early as possible. :) So please comment below or head over to twitter to ask me all the questions.

4. I have decided to keep using pinterest pictures, If I decide to share my pictures I will specifically mention it. I wanted to be sure to put that out there because in my last post I was hoping to do my own pictures. Well I am so busy that's probably impossible haha, 

Welcome to the "I always overshoot with my expectations™" gang

// Goodies

1. Wallpapers by yours truly for you all to use :)

{ disclaimer: all these pictures are not mine and are taken off of pinterest } 

2. A giveaway for a 5$ egift card from Starbucks! (If teaholics and coffee addicts can co exist anything is possible, amiright?)

 

a Rafflecopter giveaway

Well guys, as I am left with nothing else I will wrap up with the promise that I have some great content coming your way this month and I cannot WAIT to bring it your way. Hope everyone has a lovely weekend and I will see you all the next one...

// How are you? It's been a good while and I'd love to hear how you all have been doing and all the projects you've been up to! Let's talk below :)

 *imagine header*

{ *cries because I can't even insert any pics in this post*}

Hello my frens!

Today's post is going to be (very) short and sweet. As many of you know I'm dealing with butchered wifi and loading and working on any online things is becoming a pain. Also with April nano coming up I will be taking a hiatus all month to focus on writing and finishing this school year strong. BUT I have an announcement to make. The FIRST week of April I am going to have a surprise on the blog! I've partnered with some incredible poets to bring you a collaborative week of poetry. This will happen on the first week of April and after that POOF I will disappear. Also I deeply apologize but I will probably not be able to answer to your comments because of my wifi issue. But despite that I love y'all and will be reading your comments. Thank you for sticking with me. :)

{ *cries even more because, hey no arrows today...*}

xD

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Hey guys! I've been very busy lately, head under water with school and so many other crazy things. Sometimes I feel like my life is going bonkers. Today I just didn't have time for the usual post so I'm asking you all to take a poll to help me. (and some prayers for the crazy time I'm going through!)

I will be answering your incredibly sweet comments on my last post ASAP and hopefully my schedule will be back to normal soon. Au revoir my friends! I hope you all are doing great. <3

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My late wrapping up 2018 post will mostly consist of accomplishments and snippets from my journal

*evil cackles*

Enjoy the exclusive look into my private life

what i did in 2017

one // painted my room

two // made some incredible friends

three // started journaling

four // started private school and a co op

five // took a lifeguarding class

six // wrote quite a few songs

seven // fought my anxiety and got out of my comfort zone

eight // finally watched marvel and lotr/hobbit and hunger games and now i'm in LOTS OF NEW FANDOMS :")

nine // read more

ten // wrote more than ever

life snippets // some funny, some serious

Ok I'm not kidding this actually happened, DL is a kid from my school...Isaiah is my brother *headdesks*

One day in study hall...

DL: So you live in the country right?

Isaiah: Yeah

DL: So what's your water source?

Isaiah: Oh, we have a well

DL: So do you have to get buckets of water in the morning?

Me: *groans disgustedly*

Isaiah: Seriously? No!

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For a star to be born

There is one thing that must happen

A gaseous nebula must collapse

So when you  c o l l  a  p  s  e 

when you c r u m b l  e

It's not your destruction

It's your birth

-

Where there is fear lies a lack of love; and when circumstances prevent love then the only way to overcome fear is to work hard in trusting God and in listening to the song he put in those things around you

-

As the rythmic rocking of my arms slow down the the swing of Frank Sinatra and my mind sways away with the frolicking jazz beats to the rolling lyrics of love songs. My eyes drift to the basket of laundry by the chaise and the soft yellow nursery light bounces off the darkness that peeks out the blinds and the warm bundle of a baby girl lets her tired eyes droop.

The toys by the window smile placidly and I gently drop down into the nursery chair and the baby girl in my arms sucks sweetly on her thumb, her doll like features carved soft by the dwindling light.

Between the syncopations of the oriental and the old

Lies dissonance

Sweet dissonance, sweet tirednesss

So many stories untold

So many dreams left unfinished

Tomorrow Perhaps?

-

(D is one of my best friends)

"D finished Les Miserables and he cried at the end ACTUALLY cried abshdjkz MY LIFE IS COMPLETE, I literally feel like my favorite books/music/movies are like my children and when someone loves and accepts them like I do those people are pretty surely gonna stay AHH you do not understand how good and happy I felt at that moment...I know I'm slightly crazy 😂"

- 

(written as I sat by the fire with my family, we were all laughing and talking...my little bro was teaching my grandpa english and it was hilarious)

God Please keep moments this sweet, hilarious, so packed full of memories & feelings and spontaneous hugs and seeing your mother look younger by your grandmother, filled with flavors and tokens of the past, full of the ringing vibe that signals a new chapter, full of stories fit to go down in books...life is never perfect but it is good <3 Thank God <3

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{ do you guys like this?  IT COULD TOTALLY BE MY EP ALBUM COVER SOMEDAY...I MEAN LOOK >> THIS NEEDS TO HAPPEN}

What do you all think? Of these entries, goals and my mock album cover? :) I'm so sad to be gone from the blogosphere again, my computer is going through some tech issues (it's dead) and thank goodness I had this spare post planned or I would not be here at all. How are you all doing? <3

 And this is his command: 

to believe in the name of his Son, 

Jesus Christ, and to love one another 

as he commanded us.

(1 John 3:23)

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*drum rollllllllllllllllllllllllll*

*silence*

i'm back people, I"M BACK. xD

It's been so long, wayyy too long and I regret getting out of the loop. I'm going to try hard to post here every Saturday even if the posts are short & not the level of perfection I'd like them to be. But while I've been away sooo much has happened. 

Let me bring you up to date...

ALBUMS, ARTISTS & SONGS THIS MONTH
•  LOTR soundtrack • Hourglass Album by Emily Hearn • Take Me With You by Fleurie • Epic Christmas Music (try working out to this srsly) • Ultimate Christmas Album by Frank Sinatra • Pentatonix Christmas • Piano Guys Christmas • Tessa by Steve Jablonsky • Narnia Soundtrack •



BOOKS & MOVIES THIS MONTH
•  Midnight at the Electric • Salt to the Sea •  Eragon •

•  Iron Man • The Incredible Hulk • Pirates of the Caribbean (all of them) •





SPECIAL THINGS THIS MONTH
•  i'm seeing family i haven't seen in seven years • lifeguard training • midterms (THANK GOD THEY"RE DONE) • rediscovering writing and thinking over a book idea • Christmas Break • ice skating • re doing my room • cooking... a lot • recording family history • SNOW! •

I'm not gonna lie, anxiety has been consuming me lately
My thoughts have been swallowing me again and again.

Texting my friends has never been so hard, I'm scared I'll say the wrong thing...and though I tell the truth stoically sometimes I wish things were different, sometimes I wish my situation allowed me to say yes more often than no. I hate being the mysterious friend with a dark past, i hate being the girl known as the most cheerful and free spirited when in truth I'm fighting inside and some days the fighting gets physically painful.

It's hard to tell people those things...
It's hard to open up, to trust.

It's hard when you're being double crossed,
It's hard when people only know parts of you.

And don't get me wrong, I have an incredible family and incredible friends.
It's just that little achy hole, Satan whispering his lies, my over active imagination swirling me into imagined depths.

And we all have those struggles, some of us more than others.

And God is good without failure, and I need to remember that.

Prayers for me this month, ok? <3 Please email me or comment if you'd like me to pray for you because it's so important and I've been neglecting my spiritual life lately.

Anyway! Moving on to lighter subjects :)

 I've been fooling around on Goodreads a lot...so friend me there and we can talk about books and my upcoming WIP which I will hopefully finish finally. I can't wait to hold a printed out first draft copy in my hands :) THAT GLORIOUS DAY *operatic vibrato*

ALSO I painted my room light blue! I added fairy lights and am working on pulling a SUPER aesthetic look together. I'm thinking this style for the top of my bed...the only think is I have sort of a fancy curlicue head board so I'm gonna have to work on incorporating that :P




MY PINTEREST FEED IS LIKE FREE THERAPY NOT EVEN KIDDING YOU xD #thingstobethankfulfor

I am secretly documenting my family history being told to me by my incredible story teller Grandma.

CHRISTMASSS IS COMINGGGGG *runs around like a headless chicken*  TALK TO ME ABOUT YOUR PLANS, as for me...my family might be going to a ski resort with friends *flails*



How's the lifee? Talk to me about Christmas! And if you need prayers I will pray for you, I promise with all my heart...comment below or email <3. How's writing going? Talk to me peeps! 
 
No one who hopes in you 
will ever be put to shame
(Psalm 25:3a)

In pinecones I glimpse my own human nature, the layers that make up the fabric of my existence and there too I see the marvelous design of my Creator.

- Anna C. S.

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ALBUMS ARTISTS & SONGS THIS MONTH
•  Midnight Waves (album) by Canyon City • Brave New World (album) by Amanda Cook • Luthien's Lament by Eurielle • LOTR soundtrack duh ;P • Getting Lighter by Goldmund • Ruby by Ira Wolf • Sparrow by Miika Mettianein • Indodana by Stellenbosch University Choir • Angels We Have Heard On High by Piano Guys ft. Peter Hollens, David Archuleta • Frank Sinatra • Starry Starry Night by Josh Groban • Walking in the Air by Celtic Women • Stronger by Sam Robertson (song for the Las Vegas victims)  •

 
BOOKS & MOVIES THIS MONTH
 Silmarillon • The Alchemist • Emily Dickinson's Poems • How Green Was My Valley • School Books haha especially my big fat biology book •

Spiderman Homecoming 2017  • Courageous • IT creepy but good at the same time << that coming from someone who never watches horror movies •




SPECIAL THINGS THIS MONTH
• went away from home for two weeks babysitting  • went apple picking heyy Ivie I had an apple cider slushie! Are you proud of me? xD  • got A's on every single assignment and tests << I feel this first quarter optimism isn't gonna last for long hehe • met some incredible people and made friends, working on getting over my social anxiety • did some song writing and composing • took time off blogging and writing to enjoy real life and see the seasons pass • got hooked to scrapbook journaling! possible pics & ideas coming soon • made pumpkin pie <3 • CANYON CITY REPLIED ME ON TWITTER AHAHAHAHA •







Ack guys! I've been gone so long and I really do miss you all <3 Not reading your posts and interacting with everyone has left me up some nights thinking about more than one of you. I wish I could bake you all pumpkin pie and we could sit around and catch up on steaming mugs of apple cider but ahh since we can't just imagine we are! ;)

  So how do you all like my new blog theme! For some weird reason the pages feature is messing with me...if anyone has ideas or solutions do let me know :). 

Honestly it's been a wildly busy time...some of you who I email and chat on twitter probably know the situation but to those who don't I am veryyyy busy with school and I just finished two weeks of babysitting away from home while juggling projects and homework. However my time away from home taught me some important things...we writers need to get out of our little nooks and wander, we need to take up odd jobs and meet new people...we need to get out of our shell and feel life. This period of time has given me so so so much inspiration that I am only too sorry to not be able to channel at the moment. TRUST ME, do it! Get out of your comfort zone...stop staring at the screen and explore this beautiful fall season. Go cook! Doodle, paint, do creative things! 

IT"S SOOO much better than spending the free time on goodreads or twitter or pinterest (no this isn't betrayal!!! xD). 

 Hopefully I still post every Saturday and if I don't you know what's up...*growls* life...







The extent of my writing this month (no not a new WIP just a rabbit trail)

In my orderly, organized fashion I come late again with this post. *crashes in* But honestly...the ending of summer should never be hurried (don't you agree?) and it's also very hard to say goodbye to one of the best summers of my life. So in honor I decided to reflect over the blessings small and big that occurred this summer (along with a sprinkling of funny stories and anecdotes). Also I have a very big announcement at the end of the post so BEAR with me and yes you may totally skip to the end if you would rather not ;)

watermelon
 

2017 summer was watermelon summer! I feel like we had watermelon to eat every single day, well of course not every single day...but at least twice a week. I can't quite describe the happiness that comes from biting down on a crisp juicy melon :) and mama yelling at my siblings and I to go outside to eat while the sticky sweet juice trickles down our hands. In addition more than one neighbor brought us their home grown watermelons and wow it was wonderful. Next year merits a personal melon patch. Really, there can never be too much watermelon!

fireworks

this. was. scary...and awesome at the same time. I still feel the knot in my stomach over my nervousness. So our friends did an impromptu firework show in our front yard and it was great and fun but LOUD and so many sparks flying everywhere YIKES and I was holding back a curious little munchkin from running too close. But anyway one of the fireworks was particularly huge and it exploded into so many sparks that it caught the lawn on fire and it was going on and on. *internal screaming* And of course. It was no big deal. But of course I'm over there hugging that little girl and blabbering off to my sister in horror.

This was literally me the whole time xD
 

  
 sugar shack donuts

This is a funny one. It's my birthday, k? I'm at seven o'clock swim team morning practice with my siblings. So it ends *sore muscles very sore and tired sleep deprived girl* and people are asking around for my mom and I'm like "I don't know, she must be busy with the kids somewhere". Go figure my sweet mom drove one hour to the sugar shack donut store just to get three huge boxes of donuts for the whole swim team because I love sugar shack donuts and GAH ISN'T MY MOM IS THE BEST MOM EVER? SHE IS <3 <3 <3 Anyway she comes back and I'm standing there with my mouth all dropped open not believing my eyes because DONUTS and HER SWEETNESS, she was just brushing off the fact that she just drove that far just for me. And wow she really made my birthday the best ever. I'll never forget that  ^.^ 

sunsets, the rainbow ones!

 Need I say more? It's like a rainbow that carpets the whole sky...driving home over the bridge and seeing that heavenly sunset fill the sky is beyond words. It's so incredible to see those rainbow colors and remember that covenant of peace He established with Noah so long ago, but that the promise still stands forever and for every one of us. <3 God is really good <3

full moons

The midnight walk girl took her midnight walks under the full moons and IT WAS BREATHTAKING. AND THE STARS, there were millions and millions and I saw shooting stars. Those just pierce my soul with deep love...I feel little flickers of God's magic...it's like He's breathing love into our souls. <3
And on midnight walks you should try them sometime...but do it barefoot. That's very important *nodnod*  oh yes and please stay safe if you do, I have the blessing of living in a secluded property in the country so that's totally fine for me. ;)

fireflies

I remember one night sitting down on the bench late, late and my daddy came up and put his arms around me and we watched the fireflies fill the sky from ground to treetops with their sparkling little lights. Imagine frogs croaking and a sweet gentle breeze, needless to say it was a magical night...

solar eclipse

I mean WOW. What a chance of a lifetime we all got (well almost all of us). Around in my area it was cloudy but there was this one moment when the faint sun broke out and BAM you should have seen us run with our eclipse glasses. THE VIEW WAS INCREDIBLE. It was truly something I won't forget.

 bible journal

 This has become vital to me. Just writing down a few notes and quotes after a profound study could be the pick-me-up I needed at some random time. I highly recommend doing a bible journal, it's been so good for me. And plus writing in a notebook...it's very very aesthetic *creeps down to be smaller and grins*

campfires


Sitting around the campfire with family with plenty of popcorn and watermelon + while the sky grows paler and paler blue = memories


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Well here I come to the ending of this nostalgic post, and SO WHAT IS THE SURPRISE you ask.
My sister and I have decided to write a diary style blog where we talk about our life and its coming out pretty soon. AND IT'S VERY AESTHETIC AND PRETTY. This idea came up because honestly there is so much to be happy about and so much to reflect on based on our life as well as the fact that this year will be one of the most filled with opportunities and adventures as I like to call them :) AND THE BLOG NAME IS *drumroll* 

ISN'T IT PRETTY? (I'm wayyy too excited right now xD)  I'm sure you are bursting with questions so ask those below and there is more concrete explanation coming once the blog opens.

Of course this blog I will still be writing on but since school is starting along with a myriad of incredible new opportunities I will be posting only once a week on Saturdays. (with some possible exemptions but for sure once a week)

That being said...

Leaving summer is hard...but fall is a beautiful month and I feel like many of this year's reflections have included treasuring every day and season, yes even the unpleasant days and times, because what we sow in due season we will reap...if we don't lose heart <3 The weeds in our fields are only tests to see how much work and love we are willing to put in. Let's show ourselves worthy.


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How has your month been? What do you think of our upcoming blog? Share some of your favorite memories! Let's chat below! <3
  

“Surely this is our God;
    we trusted in him, and he saved us.
This is the Lord, we trusted in him;
    let us rejoice and be glad in his salvation.”
(Isaiah 25:9b)