I"M BACK // All the little things + projects

December 20, 2017

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*drum rollllllllllllllllllllllllll*

i'm back people, I"M BACK. xD

It's been so long, wayyy too long and I regret getting out of the loop. I'm going to try hard to post here every Saturday even if the posts are short & not the level of perfection I'd like them to be. But while I've been away sooo much has happened. 

Let me bring you up to date...

•  LOTR soundtrack • Hourglass Album by Emily Hearn • Take Me With You by Fleurie • Epic Christmas Music (try working out to this srsly) • Ultimate Christmas Album by Frank Sinatra • Pentatonix Christmas • Piano Guys Christmas • Tessa by Steve Jablonsky • Narnia Soundtrack •

•  Midnight at the Electric Salt to the Sea •  Eragon •

•  Iron Man • The Incredible Hulk • Pirates of the Caribbean (all of them) •

•  i'm seeing family i haven't seen in seven years • lifeguard training • midterms (THANK GOD THEY"RE DONE) • rediscovering writing and thinking over a book idea • Christmas Break • ice skating • re doing my room • cooking... a lot • recording family history • SNOW! •

I'm not gonna lie, anxiety has been consuming me lately
My thoughts have been swallowing me again and again.

Texting my friends has never been so hard, I'm scared I'll say the wrong thing...and though I tell the truth stoically sometimes I wish things were different, sometimes I wish my situation allowed me to say yes more often than no. I hate being the mysterious friend with a dark past, i hate being the girl known as the most cheerful and free spirited when in truth I'm fighting inside and some days the fighting gets physically painful.

It's hard to tell people those things...
It's hard to open up, to trust.

It's hard when you're being double crossed,
It's hard when people only know parts of you.

And don't get me wrong, I have an incredible family and incredible friends.
It's just that little achy hole, Satan whispering his lies, my over active imagination swirling me into imagined depths.

And we all have those struggles, some of us more than others.

And God is good without failure, and I need to remember that.

Prayers for me this month, ok? <3 Please email me or comment if you'd like me to pray for you because it's so important and I've been neglecting my spiritual life lately.

Anyway! Moving on to lighter subjects :)

 I've been fooling around on Goodreads a lot...so friend me there and we can talk about books and my upcoming WIP which I will hopefully finish finally. I can't wait to hold a printed out first draft copy in my hands :) THAT GLORIOUS DAY *operatic vibrato*

ALSO I painted my room light blue! I added fairy lights and am working on pulling a SUPER aesthetic look together. I'm thinking this style for the top of my bed...the only think is I have sort of a fancy curlicue head board so I'm gonna have to work on incorporating that :P


I am secretly documenting my family history being told to me by my incredible story teller Grandma.

CHRISTMASSS IS COMINGGGGG *runs around like a headless chicken*  TALK TO ME ABOUT YOUR PLANS, as for me...my family might be going to a ski resort with friends *flails*

How's the lifee? Talk to me about Christmas! And if you need prayers I will pray for you, I promise with all my heart...comment below or email <3. How's writing going? Talk to me peeps! 
No one who hopes in you 
will ever be put to shame
(Psalm 25:3a)

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  1. *tackle hugs* Girl, I have missed you so much. Your blog is perfection, okay? This is such an aesthetic and beautiful place!! And your heart is so kind. I will pray for you. I've been having more anxiety lately and letting Satan whisper his lies into my mind lately as well, so I understand, at least on some level, what you're going through. It is so hard, but the best thing to do is combat that with truth. <3 <3

    TAKE ME WITH YOU IS ONE OF MY NEW FAVORITE SONGS!! I also finally got spotify after Faith (aka Florid Sword) sung its praises. It rocks. I love having book playlists, which I already have quite a few. I'm so excited because my mom (aka my alpha) is reading my book finally. I finally let her and she loves it! (She would tell me if she didn't. And she's already shipping characters who aren't even together. XD)

    I can't wait to hear more about your WIP! I'm just so excited that you're back. Christmas is so exciting. Have you heard of Trans Siberian Orchestra? They are the best. :)

    I will stop talking now before this gets waaayyy too long. XD


    1. Do you know how happy this comment made me? ^.^ :") I log on to see a huge comment by Ivie and my heart skips a little happy beat. xxx Thank you so much for praying for me, I will also pray for your anxiety to go away...boy I know how that feels. <3

      OMW LET"S FANGIRL ABOUT IT xD I LOVVVVE ADORRRRE that song! It's so sweet and that whole space vibe. I CAN LITERALLY SEE AN OTP GOING TO THE MOON TOGETHER OR SOMETHING... I also love the album art :P Don't mind this crazy fangirl.

      HOW YOUR MOM SHIPS CHARACTERS, that is so precious and I am so so so so happy she loves it...I CANNOT wait to beta it. *flails*

      I'm getting there! I promise I will tell you about it when the idea has formulated...I might even send you an exclusive email if I get the time ;)
      I LOVE Trans Siberian Orchestra for Christmas music! One of my friends got to go and see them, lucky!


    2. You're so sweet. I got super excited to see a comment from you. :)Thank you.

      I KNOW!! I've also found a lot of awesome songs by Srvcina and Tommee Profitt.

      Yes, she keeps telling me Peter and Reagan need to be together. XD

      Ooh, awesome. Whenever you're ready. I don't want to rush you. I'm sure its awesome, though!

      That is lucky! I just saved one of their albums on my spotify a while back. XD

      Lol, that's GOOD! I talk A LOT! XD


    3. Thank YOUU <3 :)

      And Svrcina has some incredible songs but I haven't checked out Tommee Profitt...

      Absolutely! Believe it or not I wrote a thousand something words of it yesterday night alone and it takes some great source of inspiration for me to blast of a book like that so it's promising but I'm gonna see how it goes before I can talk about it :)

      LOL SAME XD <3

    4. She has some songs with him. He produces some songs by NF. He mostly does producing and writing, but he sometimes sings. I prefer the songs he produces.

      Wow, that's awesome! I totally understand. Stay on that roll! Its so exciting to have project that you just want to work on all the time. Its fun. :)

    5. That's interesting!

      Thank you Ivie! <3 It is pretty exciting to me.

  2. I'm glad you're back!

    And lifeguard training?? Cool! I'm actually hoping to become a life guard next year myself. XD

    1. I'm so glad to be back too! :)

      Yeah! I start tomorrow, I'm half nervous half excited...thankfully I know the instructor and she is so sweet and funny. Like a mom. And yes you totally should! It's a great job :P

  3. How do you like Eregon? I read the first two when I was fifteen. I'd love to get back to the series... but so many of my friends don't like them, and I don't understand why ;)

    Anxiety. Depression. Know how that is... I had it really bad this spring. I pushed friends away in a really weird way for my normal bouncy extroverted self. But in some way, they pushed back, to me. And now I feel I've never been closer to some of them as I am now.

    Yay for goodreads! I've taken up to being on there a lot these last few months as I love writing about a book after I read it. Are we friends? If not, what is your user name.

    And yes to pinterest being therapy. If strangers see my pinterest they probably think I'm some depressed person obsessed with quotes. ;p

    1. I love the concept and I half like the book half not! It drags a little bit in some areas and the it doesn't get me too emotionally involved...i feel a bit like a spectator. It makes it a bit of a job to read :/ But i like the story so I'll see how far I can make it

      That's incredible Keturah...it's good to have friends on your side. It can be tough when you're transcending culture and different situations as in my case, that makes things tougher. But God is good and I'm so thankful to share my faith with most of my friends.

      Same! I don't know??? I feel like I friended you lately but maybe my memory isn't on point. If not then my goodreads name is " Anna C. S. " and my pfp is the same as my google icon.

      LOL SAME xD It's also nice to see soothing pictures and inspiring thoughts and the plethora of inspirational quotes.

  4. I must just be one of those few weirdos that devoured it with no problem ;)

    Most of my friends live far away, as my family moves a lot, and now I travel a lot. But we do good staying in contact, which is a blessing. That does sound tough! And I think I understand a little.

    I found you and added you :D

    True... can't all be despairing. Pinterest has many inspirational and funny memes, too :D All wonderful.

    Hope you have a good day, Anna!

    1. Good for you ;) you must be a strong reader

      That must be tough! Of course everything has it's good and bad side.

      Great :D I'll accept as soon as i log on.

      That's true xD I have a whole board dedicated to the funnies.

      I hope you have a great day too Keturah! God Bless you <3

  5. *hugs* Anna I missed you and your posts so much, glad to see you are back!:)

    1. *hugs back* I missed your posts and you too! I'm so happy to be back :) <3 xxx

  6. ANNA!!! I am so glad to see you are back, but you deserved the break. It is not fun to be torn apart and depressed, but you are so fantabulous we all know you can do it. I will be praying for you, because you are a wonder to us all!

    You and your blog are awesome. You can't say anything truer.

    *hugs* Feel better, you can do it!

    Merry Christmas!!!!!!! <3

    1. CLARE!!!!! I can't lie this support is bringing tears to my eyes. I'm so human and I need that encouragement <3 Thank you so much for everything and your prayers xxx

      You are so sweet Clare, I feel like sometimes I don't read and comment on your blog enough and it is absolutely fantastical too...your rating system is tommorow's future :) <3

      *hugs back tightly* Thank you so much again and MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU TOO!!! *gets tangled in xmas lights somehow* xD

  7. aww girl, so glad you're back :) definitely praying for you and if you want to remember me, my school and other things I must do are really giving me a lot of pressure and I feel like a faliure at the end of every day. So yeah. We're here for each other :D

    I love your posts and style and aesthetics all over so really, happy you've returned <3

    1. Oh boy I sure feel you on that! <3 I will definitely be praying for you xxx I'm gonna sit down tonight and make prayer notes for everyone.

      GIRL I LOVE YOURS TOO so you can bet I'm happy to be back :) <3 <3 <3

  8. ANNA <3 *tackle hugs*

    You read Eragon!! I can see what you mean about it dragging in some places - I thought they dragged out the uncle's death a little too much especially. But I do love this book, and I hope to get more of the Inheritance Cycle books to see what happens next.

    You're doing family history too?! That's so cool! I need to finish recording mine soon - before I lose all the family stories!

    *hugs* You're not the only one that's been struggling with anxiety. Mine has been acting up lately too...My prayers are with you!

    Goodreads has turned out to be rather cool for me - as long as the politics stay out of it, if you know what I mean.

    I love your room - it's so classy looking!

    *hugs* Good to see you again!!! Missed you!


    1. *squeals with excitement* *tackle hugs back*

      Yeah! it has such a cool concept but boy the book drags and I feel like some of the stuff he ripped off of LOTR. (Eragon=Aragon Arya=Arwen Urgals=orcs etc. :P )

      That's so cool! I didn't know you were doing that too! I have some very interesting heritage :) sad too but deeply fascinating. Looking back into the past really helps you to discover new things about yourself and solve "mysteries".

      My prayers are with you too Catherine! Thank you so so much for offering your prayers, it means alot to me. <3

      Oh boy :/ I saw more than one nasty comment bomb. It's so sad how things turn out that way, so sad how people are so cruel and misled. We have to pray for that too...

      It's so so good to see you again too Catherine! I missed you and your posts alot too! xox

  9. I've been missing you and your posts! But I know about life and busyness, so don't feel bad. Just know it makes me happy to read this post. :)

    I feel for you with your anxiety struggles! It's real, and I know what you mean. For me it's being seen as the strong and spiritual girl, while I'm over here fighting insecurities and neglecting my walk with God. But you're right: the taunts are from Satan. I need to let my brokenness turn me to Christ instead of deeper in myself. Anyway, you're not alone, and I will be praying for you. He is stronger!

    Also, good on you for documenting your family history. I would like to do that too at some stage, but it hasn't happened yet. I'm sure your grandma has lots of wisdom and life experience to share! And all the best with your plans over Christmas - it sounds like fun! :) xx

    1. I've honestly been missing you and your posts too. <3 It's a season of life isn't it? I think we've all been through it some time or the other :) Oh dear it makes me so happy to read your post too, you don't know what an inspiration you are to me xxx

      I can relate so much. You're so right, we can't feel sorry for ourselves...we need to give it up to Christ. I will definitely be keeping you in my prayers as well <3 He IS stronger!

      Boy it can be a daunting task...it's hard to know where to start and how to piece everything together :) Thank you so much & Merry Christmas to you too Jessica! xxx I'm so glad to be back.

  10. Glad you're back, girl :) I've been thinking too, trying to figure out where I fit in in the grand scope of life and all that. It's hard, but God's faithful, isn't He? :)


      You hit me in the feels right there, He is faithful beyond our struggles <3


  11. Aw, I'm so glad you're back!
    I haven't been the most active follower, but I want to be much more active in the future.
    I will definitely pray for you. I also could use some prayer because I've been struggling with depression, hatefulness for myself, and a lot of insecurity.
    Your blog is beautiful by the way.
    God bless;

    1. Thank you so much Kendra :) <3 I really understand how it is with being active, I struggle with it myself.
      Thank you so much, I will most def pray for you too. Those things are so painful and I just want you to know that you are incredible and these things too will pass. <3

      Thank you! You are so sweet! xxx God Bless xxx

  12. Hey there! I have been feeling the same when it comes to texting and saying no more than yes. I always appericate when people share that they too go through something I live with. I just started listening to Fleurie and I adore her music!! Welcome back and Happy Holidays!
    Simply Me

    1. Hey Vanessa! It can be tough to share stuff but so rewarding as well bcs not only are we busting myths that everyone thinks they're the only ones dealing with certain issues but the community here is so warm and forgiving.

      Saying no more than yes can be rlly tough! I have a problem with overthinking everything honestly.

      Fleurie is totally incredible! Her music videos, voice and sound are all totally on point.

      Thank you and I hope you have the best holidays as well! <3 It's so nice to see you around, thanks for linking me to your blog...gonna have to go check it out :")

  13. Um... hello.

    I've been thinking back and forth and I decided to stick around.

    I noticed in your About Me page you mentioned that you speak 4 languages. So, I was wondering which languages they were (apart from English, of course)? I know this is a weirdly random comment but you kinda look Eastern European so I think they are European Languages?

    (Correct me if I'm wrong!)

    1. Hey Grace!

      I hope you find the time on this blog worth it.

      :) You're definitely not too far from right. I'm half Belgian / half Armenian.

      I speak French, Armenian, Russian, and the obvious English.

      (Also I read your about me page and *high five* to fellow Blimey cow fans)


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