On my Poetry Book and what life is currently teaching me
February 10, 2018
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First off, a huge huge thanks to all of you. Going through the poll was incredibly encouraging for me. Not only did I get priceless input but your comments and ideas all really warmed my heart and just made me yet more excited to release this dream to you all.
Now for the slow burn intro...I bet you all are thinking
"Anna has been erratic on the blogosphere almost absent and then out of the blue she just shocks us all with this poetry book. "
It's a bit of a complicated story. First of all during these busy months when I barely had time to write (still in the phase) I started going through my old writings and reflecting over my time span as a writer. And even though I call myself a writer (and I am), I would be lying if I didn't credit poetry to be my first love and my foremost talent in writing.
Poetry has always been inter weaved into my thoughts, my heart and my writing.
Poetry has become a way for me to deal with inner pain, with the things I don't understand.
With all of life's confusion
I don't think it's any secret I've been on one of life's mean roller coasters lately.
And I think going through this time has made me understand what the thrown around phrase
"Write what you're most scared of" actually means.
Yes, I'm scared of opening up about my situation...about my past.
But there's also something incredibly powerful about being brave enough to share it with others, and find again and again that you aren't alone.
I hope this poetry book comes soon (I'm thinking it should hopefully be out and available by the next school year), so far I think it's coming beautifully. It's a collection of the old and new, the raw and the developed. It's a wild bunch of words and emotions, but it's me and most importantly it's me fighting my fears.
I know these above words sound like an incoherent mess, hard to understand without any context. It's hard to explain in one post...in a few sentences. Even my mind finds it hard to wrap around the meaning of what is happening currently in my life.
The meaning of what we are here in this world for.
But it comes one step at a time, and I believe this book is one step.
So thank you all for helping me out on this sometimes scary journey, you all mean so much more than you could know. Every word of encouragement: the thoughtful notes, comments, advice and friendship has been invaluable.
Yeah it may sound cheesy but my heart aches a little as I write it. This has been my unrecognized dream for so long and I slowly see it unfolding. It's almost as if once I gave over my will, God replaced my plans with something quite different and yet so much more amazing than mine.
Ad Meloria
How are you all doing? How has God been working in your lives? Talk to me below! <3
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
(Corinthians 13:4-5)
28 comments
I cannot wait for your poetry book.
ReplyDeleteIt's good to be raw and open and vulnerable-I'm trying to figure that out.
AND THE GREATEST SHOWMAN IS AMAZINGGGG!!!
xx
Mira
Aw Mira <333 As a fellow poet you really inspire me!!!
DeleteOMW YESSSS!!! It was soo good, I could barely hold myself from singing along in the movie theater. :)
I looked up what 'Ad Meloria' means, and wow. I like it a lot. :) And yes, writing scared has been on my heart lately too. It's hard, the opposite of everything in me, but I know it's where God shines through the most. I'm so excited to see how He's leading in your life, and read it in your poems one day. Not one moment of your journey is wasted in Him. xx
ReplyDeleteisn't it powerful what two simple words can hold??? What you say is so true, it's hard sometimes but God shines through the cracks of our broken pieces. wow Jessica thank you so much. You have no idea how much your encouragement means to me, every word of yours has been a ray of light. xoxox
DeleteI'm so excited for you!!! I know God is taking you to amazing places. I know this moment, the moment of thinking of people reading your writing is scary. It's exciting and amazing, but it also worries you. I know your writing from your blog posts are so full of heart. I have no doubt your poetry is beautiful. Keep working toward your dreams. <3 <3
ReplyDelete~Ivie|Ivie Writes
I'm so excited too! even though I'm scared sometimes too :) Thank you so much Ivie, I couldn't have said it better. Here's to both of us getting closer to our dreams, you with your fabulous series and me with my poetry book :) xxx God is good!
DeleteOh, this is going to be so exciting, Anna! I cannot wait to read it— your poetry is so so long lasting and resonating.
ReplyDeletexoxo Abigail Lennah | ups & downs
Thank you so much Abby! I've missed reading and commenting on your posts lately, I need to get back to it. Your words are just so powerful ack!!! <3
DeleteThis is an amazing post, Anna!:) This is an lovely story and poem.
ReplyDelete-Quinley
Thank you Quinley!
DeleteYou're welcome, Anna!:)
Delete-Quinley
P.S. I tagged you for 'The Tag That Must Not Be Named.'
Ahh, I can't wait to read your poetry book! Your posts are always so insightful and deep--I don't comment on them as much as I should but I still read all of them, and I love them. <3 Also, the Greatest Showman is marvelous. Sooooooo good. <33333
ReplyDeleteI feel the exact same way about yours!!! <3 I feel guilty for being such a shadow reader. But thank you so much for this sweet comment Faith, it's refreshing to get all these kind thoughts.
DeleteIT really is!!! I'm so glad I saw it!
This is so exciting, Anna! I cannot wait for your poetry book. :D
ReplyDeleteI've recently starting writing poetry myself as a way of letting emotions loose. It's a wild ride to go back and read them. Everything's ups and downs and smudged words with typos, but looking at them after a while, it becomes clearer and clearer how God works. He's a Light in the dark even when we can't see it and with us on the stormy ocean, holding us afloat even when we can't feel Him holding our hand. I think one day, when we're in Heaven, we'll look back at our lives and wonder how we could ever doubt or fear with a God so loving and gentle and powerful on our sides. He's with us, always <3
audrey caylin
AUDREY AUDREY AUDREY, howww? This comment was poetry itself. My heart is pulsing with the beauty of what you just put into my eyes and head and heart.
DeleteThis needs to be saved <3 I pasted it into my poetry book draft just to remind me of my end goals and to not fear. xxx Thank you so so much dear. xxx
Aw, thank you, Anna! <3 I'm glad those words were able to brighten your day :)
DeleteBtw, I tagged you for the Liebster Award, if you're interested! http://audreycaylin.com/2018/02/the-liebster-award/
I’m so, so ridiculously excited for this poetry book and will definitely buy it as soon as it’s available. I’m so inspired by how you’re sharing your heart and beautiful words with the world. <3
ReplyDeleteGAH I cannot describe how happy this comment is making me <3 You are like my blog's mother XD so that means everything.
Delete*hugs* You are so close, Anna!! You'll get this beautiful book published soon, I know it!
ReplyDeleteAHHHH, YOU SAW THE GREATEST SHOWMAN!!! Gahhhhh...I'm still not over that movie.
Catherine
catherinesrebellingmuse.blogspot.com
*hugs back tighter* Sooo close!!! Thanks for always understanding and being such a trooper friend.
DeleteME NEITHER AHAHAA!
I'm so excited to read your poetry book-it's going to be amazing. <33
ReplyDeleteEep I can't wait for you all to see it! Thank you so much Gray xox
DeleteThis sounds so exciting! I always love to hear when other writers find a place to pour their thoughts and feelings into words, no matter what shape or form it takes. I pray that this journey helps you find healing along the way and that God blesses your efforts!
ReplyDeleteThank you so so much Sarah! Me too, it's amazing just what God can use a pen to do, it seems so little and unimportant but letter after letter, word after word, explosions are made. Again thank you so much for your comment and I hope you will enjoy your time here on my blog :)
DeleteI CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUR POETRY BOOK TO COME OUT!!! XD XD XD Congrats!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm doing good! Been a little tired of late; Kung Fu and advertising for my dojo mostly. :-D
Blessings, Anna! <3 <3 <3
AAHHH!!! *hugs* THANK YOU <3
DeleteOh same, I think every day that someone asks me how i am my answer is tired xD. Nice! It's great that you are doing Kung fu!
Blessings to you too Mem!!!
Hi, Anna. I tagged you for the Liebster award. No obligation to do it, just thought I'd let you know. <3 <3 Have an awesome weekend.
ReplyDeleteHey Ivie! I will definitely do it sometime :) <3 Thank you so much
DeleteHi! Thank you so much for your comments, they always make my day. I allow anonymous users to comment on my blog, but any crass, profane, pointless criticism and mean comments will be deleted. Remember to check back or click notify because I reply to all of my comments!
Have a Blessed day <3